Anyway, I'm feeling down today. :( So surprised that I'm only feeling down today because shit hit the fan since last april. Went for my heart operation as I had this extra nerve thingy that would fuck up my heartbeats and cause many other problems. Anyway, I had that operation on 17th april and it was successful. The thing is I had to be awake throughout the whole operation = I can feel the pain throughout the whole 4-5 hours!!!!! The operation is ablation- they would open a small hole from my leg and insert a tube like thing up to my heart though the arteries/veins. OMGAWD... But the operation was successful so thank god and the surgeon. And guess what people? I'm fucking allergic to bandage. -.- and its super kua zhang la wtf the whole area was red, swollen and had blisters all over. I felt so horrible that I cannot stand staying in the hospital so I requested to go home on the second day. I went home in the hospital attire. haha! like hospital break Singapore. Anyway, I felt better when I reached home because its just so much better plus I got people to look aft me 24/7 at home so no much problem there.
So the operation was 17th april, I have finals starting on 22nd april. So I started studying despite the pains and allergies (the allergies are super painful and itchy omgawd) And I had to go school on a wheelchair because I couldn't walk WHOA now I know how animals in the zoo feel. Anyway... fast forward the story, my allergies FINALLY got better, and the bad luck doesnt stop. I caught the seasonal flu. OMG DURING MY FINALS AND AFTER MY ALLERGIES GOT BETTER... give me a break please. After what seems like eternity of being bed ridden and sick, I felt worse today. Vomit and couldn't sleep. I went for my exams in this state this morning. Lack of sleep and super sick. Ahhhhh. I just hope I can get through my exams safely. :( They ask why don't I take the exams later? It's because the process is so tedious and its not a hundred percent that you can take the sub papers. GOSH RMIT AH RMIT. plus, it's my final semester. Didn't wanna risk it. ok now that I said this I feel stupid because it seems worse to take exams in my conditions.
So I was driving home after the paper today and realized that I had no cashcard in my car. The line was like horrendously long. I was so lucky that my friend was in the line as well so he passed me the card. OMG.
Surprisingly, I only felt down today... maybe it's because of the paper? idk everything? My last paper is on the 7th and I'm gonna only start now.... feel so demotivated, dont wanna study, dont wanna do anything. I just wanna cry and sleep. But...
SO SAD RIGHT WANNA CRY ALSO NO TIME TO CRY BUT CAN BLOG HAHA! ok la enough of self pity alr. Time for immediate pick me ups :)
choice 1: BigBang!!!!
Listening to pumped up songs always make me feel better! maybe its the handsome guys effect hahaha!
Dont say I sexist. Lai I share my favourite girl-band with u all! 2ne1!!!! SO IN LOVE WITH CL omg....... she so flyyyyyyyy
Choice 2: Watch cartoon or anime teehee!
Choice 3: Watch discovery channel with my parents. Idk why but I always feel super calm when I sit on the recliner with them and just watch discovery tgt. btw the shows are SUPER INTERESTING.
Choice 4: Eat my feelings. HAHAAHA! NOT GOOD LA but yea.. Cakes, chocolates etc. or alcohol also can! But I've been so sick and I didn't go out for the third week alr (Didn't wanna spread to other people) so choice 4 is out. Let's stop eating our feelings... or at least I should stop. haha!
I need to go out and play man... stuck at home for too long already. :(
Choice 5: Read articles that are motivating or aspiring. People always share such thing on FB and it's great! Usually I will go read, reflect abit and I would feel better :)
For all you people out there that had a bad day, weeks, months, or even years... It's only bad because you let it be. be positive yooooooo! have a positive attitude and attract all the goodness :) I can, you can, we all CAN!!!!!
Lai my super cute cookie's smile picture to attract all the luck!
And my shameless photo! TEEHEE! smile and everything will be better :)
XOXO,
Cynthia
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